Ujians. One after another.
If they just involved heart-dealing matters or physical pains, I don’t think I have any problems enduring them, but most of ’em cost me an arm and a leg. That’s why I’m bit fuc*ed up and questioning what I did wrong in these past few weeks.
It started with my Bangk*k trip turned disaster. Don’t know what went wrong but it sure was one of the not-so-nice vacation I went on. And I spent a lot of $$$ on unnecessary hawker-profit-making-and-I’m losing stuffs. I tell you, Bangkok is one very cruel city. Been cheated at hawkers, one after another till I gave up and let them just mocked me.
Then come the most upsetting part. My friend (was bestfriend, I know she’s reading this and just so you know, you and I, we’re over) cheated on my money. I totally understand that she’s in a desperate mode right now, but please? cheating your own *was*bestfriend’s money? That’s gotta beat the record. I was crushed, especially during times that I really need it the most. Truth be told, I don’t even care about the money pun. She has been pinjam-ing my money since forever pun, and I said to her that ‘you have all the time in the world to pay me’ but what makes me heart broken the most coz of she stole the money on my back and was so scared to ask me for it. I felt betrayed. Betrayed coz she, for one second dare to think that I would scold her for the money she could have asked instead of stealing.
If I can’t be a good friend, then I don’t know if I’d be good for anything else.
Put that story aside, I also just forked out 3k plus for the change of name for the car. It was just last week. It was a mixed-feeling event, a part of me wanted to change the car’s name, but a part of me saying no. Naahh..I’m just glad I did.
And come to another mishap in my life. Last Friday I was so ‘blurred’ when there’s a swift wireless connection at my level in the office. Being stucked with a ‘sudden’ wireless connection on a Friday evening, you can very much guess how the rest of the story ended. I tell you, total blonde moment. How could I acted so stupid and naive-ly and never even considering the fact that I was browsing not through the wireless connection, but through my WAP! I didn’t even turn on the wireless button on my phone, for God sake! And to cut the grandmother-grandfather story short, my phone got barred last night. Ps: My credit limit is RM300 so you do the calculation yourselves.
And that Saturday morning. That unfortunate Saturday morning. I got myself into an ‘accident’ accident that made me traumatized till today. And that would totally be my ‘blonde moment’ Part II for the week. I won’t even gonna discuss it here but I’m still shivering everytime I think of how it happened (you can imagine how embarassing that accident was). And don’t even ask how much money I spent on collateral damage that day. Just save to say that my bank account is empty by now.
But I know, if I can take on all those things I mentioned above, I think now I’m equipped to take on anything upcoming. Try me.
Ps: God, give me the strength. I need it the most at times like these…