Email from N*zri few days ago:
N*zri: Aku ada benda nak tanya ko. Hope ko tak marah.
Me: Heh, shoot! Apsal aku nak marah lak? (Padahal dalam hati dah saspen dah. Apahal mamat ni tanya cmtu lak?)
N*zri: Macamana ko boleh jadi baik eh?
Nota kaki: N*zri was my Uitm friend. Not to say friend-friend lah, but I know him coz Khair was with Boy that time (and still is), and he is one of Boy’s cahoots. Never uttered a word with him back in Uni days (he’s in the good-guy group – don’t catch my eyes langsung! (heh), lagipun he was busy clinging to his gf that time-they were broken up already now, unfortunately) but now that we work in the same building, somehow we become the bestest of friend. Again, not to say friend lah, but kutuk and laughing partner.
I laughed heartily in front of the PC.
Me: Nape ko tanya camtu?
N*zri: Takdela, dulu aku tengok ko kat Uitm macam jahat je.Skarang macam dah baik je..Lain sangat la…
I asked him how did he come about defining me as the bad girl (suke2 je I define orang as bad/good guy, padahal I don’t know that people have been labeling me as one bad girl back then.hehe). He pun ngongeng2 la cakap how me and my gang that time (Rina, Lisa, Khair, Nabila, Emi etc) were never tegur2 orang, the way we dressed (freehair and all), the way we talk, things we did etc.
I explained this to him: Time tu tengah mencari identity la. Study ke mana, fun is all we think about. But when the time comes, when someone came into my life, masa tu la start berubah. I guess we can never say when we want to change. The right person will come to you and change you fot better, without you even realizing it.
N*zri: Oh yeke macamtu. Aku terbalik la. When P*ie tinggalkan aku, aku jadi makin jahat..Taktaula nape..
Me: Hah, late bloomers macam ko ni la aku tak gemar. Orang lain dah habis buat jahat, ko baru nak kenal dunia. Orang lain dah taubat dah, dah start nak build life and family, ko baru nak buat jahat, pastu konon-konon ko la paling hip, cool and gempak padahal benda2 tu orang dah buat 5tahun lepas dah (me teasing him padahal it’s so true la. Now is the time for money digging, settling down, becoming a better Muslim and being an outside observer rather than being in the ‘in’ crowd. Those days are over. I know 26 is just a number, but it’s not little okay..)
And personally, I think it’s better for a person to experience all the things in the world first (bad-crazy things I mean here) and change for better later, so that the infamous culture shock syndrome won’t take place when he/she actually go through that things in the future. I know some people did (and still do). And the result? They become far worse than the person who actually gone through the same experience earlier. And let me break the news to you, they like to brag a lot about it too🙂
N*zri: Tula, aku pun sedar jugak sebenarnya. Tapi taktaula apa nak buat..
Me: Tunggu jela. Best things happen when you least expected it. Mana tau time ko tengah jahat ni ada orang datang and ubah ko jadi baik ke-tanpa ko sedar. Macam kes aku dulu..
N*zri: Heh betul gak apa ko cakap tu eh..
I’m wishing him all the best. And now I began to ponder, maybe the guys that came into my life (but never have the courtesy to stay a little longer) were never meant to stay, but just sent from above to straighten my path? Whatever it is, I feel so complacent now when thinking about it. Thank you – whoever you may be coz I can assure you that the trail I’m taking now seemed much clearer and the mist that cloud have gone.
~Selamat BerOlimpik Beijing and Merry Solemnization my everdearest Khair Syakira~