Yesterday, I ask him this:
Me: When we “sorta breakup”, I said I want us to remain friends kan? Despite the feelings that you have for me, how do you manage to befriend me?
Him: To tell I have no feelings for you now is a lie because sometimes I do think of you unintentionally. How do I managed to befriend you? Actually I don’t know.. Redha kot..
Me: Do you want me to be there for you? For what? So that you can see me there, even you cannot get me? Or pasal u memang ikhlas nak kawan dengan I? Were you hurt?
Him: I never ask you to be there for me. I prefer a girl who is free spirited and I think is you. Ikhlas berkawan..not expecting anything in return.. Hurt? Well, maybe a bit..knowing you that well somehow eases the pain..
Me: The thought of losing completely?
Him: The thought of losing..does happen occasionally.. yet who am I to decide.. if Allah has decided to be that way..so I let it be..
I asked him these coz I want to know how to handle this. I admire his courage, coz he’s stronger than me although me and him were in the same shoes. I returned his heart and someone else returned mine..