My boyfriend dumped me for another girl after a three and a half year together. I admit part of it was my fault, but it was definitely his lost.
I’m fighting tooth and nail to return the love of a guy that likes me but I can’t. He is such a sweetie, but as I said, my heart can’t say yes if my brain already said no.
I like this guy and I can feel the vibe from him too. He suddenly kept quite after few weeks and all I can think was that he (may be) hate my guts. Later he surfaced again and finally said; quote-unquote [That day, I suddenly rasa I like you so much..but there’s a problem to it]
I asked him, what’s wrong in liking? Coz obviously it’s written on my face that I like him too.
He again; quote-unquote [I love somebody else very much, but she’s not like you, You gave me something she never gave. But again, nobody’s perfect kan?]
I guess whichever battlefield I’m in, in the end I’ll still hold the loser’s trophy. I don’t blame anybody though, maybe the timing is never right. But I have to admit that I admire his rule number one (Be Honest) rather than leaving me in the dark not knowing what’s going on.
You know what my reply was? Me quote-unquote [You made a right decision by loving her. Nobody’s perfect. Being together is not about changing, but accepting].
Am I stupid, or just plain blardy stupid by saying all that???! Gaaah…
Bestest friend of mine said that I like to chase ghosts, or rather I like to chase people that I cannot get. But trust me dear, I’ll stop chasing once I know that the ghost belongs to someone. Greatest sins of all is theft (The Kite Runner): I know even I made the slightest thought about stealing him, it will make me nomore different from that girl in Tale One. I know how painful it was to have your significant other to be stolen, and I will not make other people go through that suffering. Not ever.
I’m no Florence Nightingale, but if it was written that my purpose in life is to spread love and make other people happy, I wouldn’t hesitate and say no, not in million years. Afterall, love means letting go, right? *wiping teary eyes*
Ps: Do not be angry coz’ you can’t make people as you wish them to be; for you cannot make yourself as you wish to be..