Yesterday went to aunt’s house in Subang, my grandma was there for a week so I brought my mum for a little family gathering. Lepas dah makan semua tu, as usual I hang out with my little rascals cute adorable munchkin cousins. After a round of Monopoly, we borak2 and gurau2 and I don’t know why I accidentally asked them what are they gonna be when they grow up:
Haziq (7-y.o): Haziq nak jadi angkasawan..!
Haqeem (8-y.o): Haqeem nak jadi pelumba F1 la..mcm Kimi..eh tak, mcm Massa..
Luqman (10-y.o): Man nak jadi doctor pakar. best apa bedah2 orang..
Nana (3-y.o): Nana nak jadi…cantik! (I doubt that she understands the conversation that we’re having so I forgive her for that)🙂
Oh man! What happened to the standard report-card primary school ambition (polis, askar, cikgu, peguam etc?) These kids had really evolved from the planet I came from. Planet of running nose and saliva, planet of main tengteng and getah during recess, planet of watching “The Girl From Tomorrow” during weekends and definitely planet of playing that Mario Bros and PacMan game during school holidays. They have become wiser and smarter I guess, with their PS2 (and some 3), Astro channels and English-based teaching at school. They even use the term ‘stayback at school’ which I admit I know the phrase only during secondary schooldays. Luckily they evolved for better, so nothing much to complaint!🙂
Later Luqman asked me: Kak Nee dah besar nak jadi apa? *I rasa diorg tak perasan yang I’m big enough to be asked these kind of qs, but heck?*
And I tell you ah, my brain froze for at least 30 second. 20..25..still waiting..30! Time’s up!
Me: Kak Nee tak tau la nak jadi apa…
And I swear I didn’t lie to them. I simply don’t know what my ambition is. At least, I know what it was. During schooldays I’ve always wanted to be a lawyer. Growing old, the ambition fades into thin air . My friend always said that I made a good PR officer since I can talk. Owh, I sooooo not fit the bill for a PR-er. Yes I talk a lot to my friends, but what they don’t know is that I only talk to people that I favor! And I won’t hesitate to give a sulky face to people that I don’t like and walkaway from surroundings that I don’t feel comfortable being with. I’m wearing proudly what it is I’m wearing on my sleeves and not afraid to show it. Other than that, I don’t know if I have anymore talent to flaunt. Gee..🙂
If I were to answer Luqman’s question full-hearted and honestly, I would say these:
Kak Nee nak keje kat TGV jaga ticket stubs so I get to watch free movies every passing day, nak keje kat Starbucks jadi barista so I can have 3 cup of my favourite coffees daily, nak jadi florist so I get to be surrounded by beauty and good smells everyday, nak keje kat nursery so I can be with kids all day long teaching them ABC, nak jadi stewardess so that I can fly to my favourite places every week, nak be in Passport to Europe like Samantha Brown so I’ll conquer every EU countries, nak jadi author like Sophie Kinsella and write book(s), nak jadi food critic so I can travel the whole world eating good and authentic cuisines, wanted to be paid for traveling or giving ideas on nice places I’ve visited, wanted to be a cook like Jamie Oliver, trying new recipes and cook for other people. Those are my dream jobs, really…
I know, there’s nothing wrong in dreaming what we wish to be, but sometimes we just have to be realistic. Can we really just drop everything that we are doing on the floor and pursue our dreams? Mind you, bills, gas and car need to be paid. I guess reality check is definitely painful. Ouch!🙂
Arghh, I wanted to be anywhere but not here and I wanted to do anything but not this. ONLY time will tell.
Ps: Happy birthday to dear Za (amboi siap request lagi nak cake chocolate, I baru ingat nak buat cupcake for u). A year older, a year wiser, dear!