Ct and the bloated face Liza
I love meat. Meat makes me happy
Happy Birthday Liza!! Had a blast celebrating her birthday yesterday at our usual hangplace – Seoul Bulgogi. Actually it was Liza’s pick since she was (well, obviously) the birthday girl lah kan? I gave her a set of necklace and earring made from black pearl which was handmade by my colleague. Very nice.
Well, as usual, when 4 of us (plus another 2 fellas – Siti’s boyfriend – Adiputra and Liza’s colleague – Wan who left the scene bit early) meet, the place would definitely turned bonker. We chatted like there’s no tomorrow until they decided that it’s the time to give a “pep-talk” to their Nazi-hearted (Liza’s quote) friend (well yours truly lah kan?) who is happily refused to have any business with whatever thing called love or anything that has to do with it.
It started when I told them I’m currently considering someone for an open relationship (well its a mutual agreement sbenanya).
Note: Open relationship ni (for those yg tk tahu) is a bind between two persons yang seeking a partner but they don’t want to involved emotionally. They are attached but are free to do whatever the wish, to date whoever they like and paling penting – no jealousy involved.
“Sampai bila nak involve dlm open relationship tu?” They asked me. (Garang ni)
“Well, sampai I jumpa org yg betul2 I suka la. Then I’ll stop” (Buat muka comel)
“The I’ll be alone la forever. Or maybe open relationship forever la kot” I countered.
“Nak tanya awak something. Betul ke awak tak nak kahwin sampai bila2?” This one I remembered, coming from Siti’s mouth.
“Well..Nak la ..Tapi-“
“Takde tapi2… Kalau nak maksudnya nak la tu. You know what your problem is? You don’t believe in love because you don’t believe in yourself. If you start believing in yourself then you will eventually embrace love.”
“Tapi how can I involve again? I’ve had and seen so many failures. How can I know that the person is the one? Or that he won’t ever hurt me?
“You don’t. You just don’t. That’s why they call marriage is a gamble. You never know what you might get. But at least you tried. Usaha dan tawakal. Yang lain2 tu urusan Allah”
“Lagi satu, when you pray, ask for God for what you want. Specifically. Allah Maha Mendengar. Dia akan dengar and makbulkan apa yang kita nak. Paling penting kena ikhlas. Apa yang ko nak sangat in a guy?” They added.
“Err…I just want for a person to love me as much as I love him. Tak payah lebih, tak payah kurang. Sama rata. Ade ke?” Again. Buat muka comel lepas dah kena marah kaw-kaw ngn dear friends.
“Pray for it then. InsyaAllah Tuhan dengar.”
They (hampir-hampir) managed to convert me by 11pm. It’s not that I don’t believe in love. It’s just that I don’t believe that a guy can love. I know I can. But how do I know that he does?