My boss is leaving the company. Who knew that she would be leaving after 13 years going through the ups and downs in the company. When she told us last week that she had tendered her 1-week resignation, no words came out from our mouth at all. This week, we tried to clear as much cases and try to absorb as much (as if we can) knowledge and information from her. It’s like u have been depending on this life-support machine and then one day the doctor just say to u that “We will unplug the machine in a week time. Get prepared. Or die”. Pretty disturbing isn’t it?
I don’t have all ‘Alice in Wonderland’ story with her. You see.. She is that kinda boss that you finger-crossed would take her MC everytime you have not get your work done in time. She is that kinda boss that you wish would not realize the typo u made in your memo after you’ve submitted your draft so you don’t get ‘that look’. And she is also the kinda boss you wish that don’t get PMS every single day coz your working paper oftenly would look like a doctor’s shorthand in giving prescription to the nurse after she handed the paper over. Yeah, she can a be a royal pain in the a** (Apology in advance if u read this) but she’s the only person I’ve ever admired in my department throughout my 2-years service in here. She’s tedious in her work but that’s just because she wanna see perfection. She’s stringent but that’s because she wants the best from us. She’s expecting too much and that’s just because she knows that we have so much more to give.
Last night I spend the late hour at the office with her, clearing all the pending cases. We went to solat Maghrib together and I made small talk with a tad hope that she would reconsider her resignation. Later on she said these exact words (Owh I wish I have a tape recorder that time and when I realize that my handphone have the voice-record thingy, it would be a little too late that time, would it?): “I see the potential in you, I know that u can make it big. You pick very fast and I won’t be surprise that you would even jumped the seniors in getting promotions. I trusted you that’s why I don’t mind giving you difficult tasks, cause I know that you can do it.”
I collapsed the soonest she stopped (well, at least my braincells did)
I really-really was overwhelmed by her remarks. Who knew that on her very last day she would utter such words to me. I’ve always thought that she thought I’m a bimbo coz I got scolded all the time! And I also being thrown difficult cases and the only reason I could think was “She must hate me so much that she bundle all this pile of work on me!” And I thought she would think I’m an idiot cause she always had to explain things to me twice before I really sink into the understanding part.
I guess the saying “You won’t realize what u have until it’s gone” really would be appropriate to use right now. I hate to admit it, but I really will miss her when she’s gone. I’ll miss the lovely scratches she made on my plain-white working paper. I’ll miss the disgruntled face and the yellings and the pile of submissions assigned to me by her. I’ll miss the way she explained things to me until I really get it – or else she’ll start the whole explaining-process all over again. She’s the greatest first boss one could ever had. Truly.
Ps: Those highly-acclaimed remarks she made deserves a chocolate indulgence treat. I’m baking for her today. Pronto.