Unlike many other bloggers, my entries never linger around matter of the heart and what nonsense I feel about towards something (or someone). Most of my entries would range from events and activities I did and endured. That’s because I don’t really feel anything towards anything (or anyone) anymore nowadays. All I know is that I am happy and contented with what I have – with friends mostly. And I don’t want to put myself into a position where I’ll hurt myself (again), and if that’s ever happen, I’ll quickly manoeuvre my way away..
Today I will break the rules. There’s this guy.. (surprise eh?)
He’s not new in my life’s diary as I’ve known him forever.. But these few months, he’ s been popping out frequently into my life with the recurrent texts, calls and appearance. We were bestfriends back then when we represented Uitm for hockey championship and had keep in touch ever since. But I could not agree more, that the fact that his come-back this time, bear some differences from the lasts.
Truth is – he has a girlfriend. Had or has I can’t really tell. We have always keep our
relationship friendship within the border limit, coz the fact that he’s taken. I couldn’t help it but I must admit that he’s one of the good guys (who’s getting very scarce in numbers out there). But in these few months, he never even mention about his girlfriend anymore and I figured something must’ve gone wrong somewhere. But I don’t dare ask and I would not ever steal the fish in one’s plate.
Then what’s my problem? Here’s 3 things u need to know:
(a) I like him; and
(b) I think he likes me too (muahahaha); but
(c) I’m not ready to be in relationship.
After assessing my situation, I’ve come out with three different scenarios (sorry peeps I’ve gone overboard with this one – not that he has asked my hands in marriage pun!) :
(a) If he said that he likes me, but he’s still with his girlfriend, I’ll back-off (that’s what I’ve been doing pun slama ni!)
(b) If he said that he likes me, and he has already broke it off with his gf, I’ll do what??? – I definitely don’t want to lose him but I don’t want to hop in relationship bandwagon just yet!
(c) If he didn’t say anything, then we’ll stay as what we were. That’s better 🙂
Guess I’m thinking too much. Can I just go with the flow? He’s sweet, charming and with that body? …. definitely drool! Just pray for the best and when the time comes, I’m sure I’ll know how I’m going to tackle this matter (if there’s one) 🙂
Ps: Am seeing him tonight. Again.