If I tell you something, you might give me ‘the look’ or even shake your head in disbelief.
Honestly, I never understand the concept of “Insha Allah”. At least, the old me never did.
I remember that it always peeved me when I ask people whether they’re coming and they RSVP-ed with an “Insha Allah”. I thought it was a safe answer for either “I’ll be coming” or “I might not be coming”. I need a definite answer. I hate to be left in the dark without knowing either it’s a yes, or a no.
Little did I know that it is impossible to say “yes” or “no” to something that we DON’T KNOW. Whether it will happen or not. Yes, that’s the stupid and arrogant me. Always wanted people to do as I said, without taking into account that the universe is administered by one superpower that is ALLAH. Not mine, obviously. But I always like to take matter in my own hand. It’s simple, it’s either yes, or not. Either you’re interested, or not.
I used to be mad when people say “Insha Allah” when I ask them whether they’ll do it or not. Whether they’ll come or not. Whether they’ll go or not. Astaghfirullah, I was so naive and arrogant, I seek your forgiveness Ya Rabb..
Now, when being asked whether I’ll do it or not, whether I’ll come or not, whether I’ll go or not, my answer will always be “Insha Allah”. And I understand when they get mad and asked “Tell me the real thing, are u coming or not? I need to confirm my guest list blahblah”. Maybe they still don’t understand the concept of “Insha Allah”. I don’t blame them, I was like that before. It’s not you’re trying to defy God, it’s just that you think some things are beyond your control.
Trust me, none of them AREN’T.
If I say YES I’LL COME to your event and for all I know, I die on the way. I would have broken the promise, innit? That would be a shame..
Take your time to ponder. Allah is always great. There’s always a reason for everything and you will fond solace when you find the answer..